Post #9...Tea, a Sandwich, Lemon cookies and Psalm 46:10

                             

                                     Psalm 46:10 New Living Translation (NLT)

                             “Be still, and know that I am God!
                                           I will be honored by every nation.
                                           I will be honored throughout the world.”

Today I am still.

           I woke up  early and even though my son is 17 I still like to wish him a good day at school and send Him off with a "I love you God bless you"sometimes he even has time for a bit of breakfast. Once he leaves it is still super early and in the stillness of quiet I sit and enjoy my cup of tea.

           I have not been feeling well lately. In fact I have been visiting a neurologist and had a bunch of tests done to see what is wrong with me. It could be anything. It could be nothing, all I know is that I don't feel right. I don't feel well.

It is very scary when you have all sorts of symptoms and nothing concrete to point to anything in particular. You google it and find it could be anything from stress to a serious illness.

So you wait for appointments with specialists, and you wait for tests.

You sit in waiting rooms trying to act calm.

You flip through magazines.

Catch up on texts messages.

scroll through Facebook.

But in the back of your mind you wonder ...what if.

This is not my first rodeo.

11 years ago I had cancer.

I became still.

My relationship with God became so close and so familiar that I felt His very presence.

It was then that I realized that I, a simple housewife and Mom was part of His plan. He knew me. He loved and Loves me and wanted me to Love HIM too. I realized that HE sacrificed His very SON for me. FOR ME. I had not ever felt that Love before. The only time I felt calm during that time was when I was still... with HIM.

I was still and knew that HE is GOD.

I knew that whatever happened I leaned on HIM and knew that HE would be with me every step of the way.

and now here I am.

Today I receive an answer. 

I'll drive to the doctors office.

I'll sign in 

I'll sit and grab a magazine and pretend to read an article.

I'll catch up on a text or two,

and go on Facebook or Instagram.

and whatever the outcome. 

Whatever the doctor has to say...I can be sure of one thing...GOD is with me. 

He loves me and if the news is bad...GOD will never leave me. He'll hold me through any storm until my last breath...Where I will in turn open my eyes and I'll be able to Hug HIM myself.

So if you are going through a trial.

If you are waiting for results...

Be Still and

Know that HE is GOD. 

Lean on HIM.

He will answer.

I will be praying for you.

Blessings, Joanne